A Brand New Year

What will this new year bring? I hope it does bring some change in my life. I hate to say I am going to do this in the new year or that. I hate putting that pressure on myself and then fail. One thing I want to do is be more organized. I have to be. I miss stuff all the time. I never used to be this way. I think I was more productive when I worked! I need to make out a schedule of what to do on what days. Hopefully that will help. The most important this is I want to be a better mother and wife this year. I feel like I do pretty good at the wife thing. I have just been struggling this year with Lulabelle. Twelve sure is a tough age. I have to have more patience with her and show her how much I love her more often. Now is such an important age that I don't want to mess up now. My family means the world to me! I have to remember that in giving my time to others. I am tired of putting so much effort in to people who only use me. That will change this year for sure! So here is to a happy 2011!

Wake up call

I know that I live my life day to day and take all of those days for granted. I know that I should appreciate things more but I always think there will be tomorrow. Well the last week has been a major wake up call for me. Unfortunately at other expense. I have only met Lane a handful of times. The first time he was about 3 years old. Lane is the son of one of Joe's best friends from high school. Last week Lane felt that there was nothing left for him in this life and at 16 years old he took his own life. It makes me so sad to think that he felt so helpless. He is very loved by his family and friends. We went to visit Sean and Marla on Friday night. It took everything in me not to cry in front of them. I cried the entire way home and then cried myself to sleep. It made me think of how lucky I am and all I have in this life. It made me question myself as a wife, a mother and just as a person in general. I want to do better. Then on Tuesday and friend of mine went in for a routine surgery. When they were filling her with CO2 they nicked a vein and all the gas went to her heart. They had to pump her chest for 2 minutes to bring her back. Thus wake up call number 2 in less than a week. I now am doing more and better instead of just saying I want to do better. I love my husband, children, family and friends so very much and now I just need to show it more. I need to stop and smell the roses. I feel like my eyes are now wide open. I am no longer going to worry about the little things like gossip and drama. I am going to concentrate on the good and not the bad. I am so sorry that Lane had to lose his life and my friend had to go through what she has this week but I am thankful for the much needed wake up call.

He Is His Father's Child!!!

From the moment I found out I was having a boy I knew I was in trouble. Joe's son, WOW! So a few weeks ago Landon learned how to ride his bike without his training wheels. He had been asking Daddy for a while to take them off but I really did not want him to take them off. I knew once he got them off his bike he would be taking them off his motorcycle. Well her learned within 2 days and was doing a great job. He learned how to start on his own, stop and turn around. Last Thursday night I was waiting in the parking lot of the school for aerobics to start and I got a text from Joe. It was Landon riding his motorcycle without training wheels. I knew then I was in for it. Well the next day was Friday and it was finally warming up so the kids were outside riding their bikes. I came inside to help Landon change into a short sleeved shirt and when he was done he went back outside. The phone rang so I answered it and before I knew it Jenna was at the front door saying that Landon had wrecked him bike. When I got out there he was a bloody mess. I took him from Tyrone and went into the bathroom to wash his hands off and check him over. Before I even had a chance Toshia said you have to take him to the ER right now. I didn't know what to do so I asked her to drive us. She got her truck and I held Landon kicking and screaming the entire way there. When I got to the ER I had to fill out some papers. When Toshia walked in she looked like she had been shot. She was covered in his blood. They took us back right after that and told me they would sedate him to stitch up his chin. I was so relived because I knew it would be terrible to try and hold him down. Gami, Gramps and Alyssa got there and decided to go to Wal Mart and try to find him some toys to make him happy. Joe got there right before they put him under. It was awful. His eyes were open but he was out of it. It was not a good feeling to see him that way. They were not able to do anything with his tooth. After waking up he started throwing up and had to have a CAT Scan. After a few hours they finally let us go home. The pain meds make him so sick that the threw up all day on Saturday. He has hardly eaten anything since then. He is so weak and it is so sad to watch. I took him to the dentist on Monday and they can't do anything for another week. They are hoping to pull his tooth without having to cut his gums. It has been a rough several days and I am sure there are going to be more to come. That is all for today. I will keep you posted!

Happy Birthday Grandma Keller

Happy Birthday Grandma Keller. Even though you are not here with me I am still celebrating. I miss eating cake with you on your birthday. You were the best grandmother to me. I remember always having so much fun with you. You would take me to the mall and let me buy penny candy at the candy store. We would eat bonbons on the swing outback. I remember playing Old Maids with you and you would always cheat!! You were the grandparent that always cared about me, loved me and showed me that and did not just say it. I miss you very much and think about you all the time.

2 Sides to every story

You would think as a 33 year old woman that I would know that every story has 2 sides and not to judge a book by its cover. Yet I find myself in a bad spot. Why do I do this? I know better. Yet I listened to what someone else said and took it for truth. In turn we have hurt a child. How do you make that go away. DH has apologized to the child but he was still very upset with him. Why do people feel the need to talk about something that they know nothing about? Why do we all forget that there are 2 sides to every story. I am so sick of gossip and grown adults acting like they are in high school. I have made a promise to myself that I will never fall into that trap again. From here on out I am done with other peoples drama and gossip.

Let it snow!

Let me start by saying I am so excited that they are calling for snow tomorrow!!! Now let me run through the check list. Bread, milk and peanut butter -check, gas for the generator - check, snow suits for the kids and me - check. Looks like we are ready. I actually went to the store on Monday when they first started really talking about snow so I could avoid the crowd of people. Joe went to the gas station yesterday and got 27 gallons of gas. We can't go without power. For one the National Championship game comes on tomorrow night and the Lime Creek Gang would die if they didn't get to watch. When Alyssa got home from school today she informed me that there would not be school tomorrow. I got excited and drug the kids out to Academy. When I got there they didn't have any toddler size snow gear. Alyssa tried on the large and it fit perfect. When I went out to get her the XL someone had put a 3T on the empty rack. I scooped it up and tried it on Landon. I barely fits him but it will do. I also bought a snow suit. Hopefully we will all be warm. Joe thinks we are crazy. Danny will be out of town so I have told my mother that she has to come and stay with us. I don't want her home alone especially if we lose power. I just hope that I have not gone through all of this for nothing. So let it snow let it snow let it snow!!!

Happy New Year

So 2009 is over! It was a good year in so many ways for us but a very trying year for many people that we know. I just pray that 2010 is a year of change. Not to sound like Obama LOL!! My main resolutions this year are to stay organized and to spend more time one on one with each of my kids. I get so much time with Landon alone and very little with Alyssa. Not that I don't think she minds but I do. I find myself needing more patience with her and I am hoping if we spend more one on one time together it will help with her attitude towards me. I love her so much and want us to be close. If you know me the staying organized is going to be the tough part! I hate to clean! I am going to call a friend that has a business call "All Spaced Out" to help me out. I also want to lose some weight. That sounds so generic for a resolution. Well I am going to try anyway. I also want to make more time for my friends that count and love me! I feel like I am keeping up with too many friendships that are one sided. I also want to keep up with my blogging much better!! I am going to try at them all. So here is to 2010!!!!